From the 2012 blog — LarryDog, who is now almost 16, has recently taken to following me from one room to the next. This is new.
If I’m cooking, he’s underfoot in the kitchen–a logical thing for a dog to do, but something that’s new for him. If I am in my home office, he’s usually on his pad but the other day he noticed that he can fit under my new desk right next to me when I’m working on my laptop. If I go to the bedroom, he has two favorite places to lie there–one blocking access to the door and the other on a softer rug. Oh, actually, he has a third favorite spot in there: when I’m in the bathroom, he lies by its door in the bedroom.
And so it goes. The other day I stopped counting at a dozen times that he followed me, and that was around noon. What does he want when he does this? Mostly, it seems he just seems to want to be close. Other times, he comes and puts his face up to me. I pet him a little or scratch behind his ears, and he is satisfied to move away.
He still has most of his vision, but he is getting quite deaf. So maybe he is relying more of his vision and is keeping me closer for that reason. It seems to me that in many of these moments, he is doing what he has always done as a dog: he is bringing me into the present moment, sharing a bit of love. But is there also a bit of preparation for the long goodbye that will be coming up sometime down the road?
A lot of people wouldn’t go for that idea, but I do keep wondering. He is still enjoying going for walks, eating his meals at top speed, and hanging out with us. There is still quality of life for sure. And all these little moments together add to it.
UPDATE: He lived to 16 and a half and passed peacefully.